I finally hit rock bottom, everything in my life had officially fallen apart. Why you might ask?
1. My mother has been dead for quite sometime.
2. Elias is almost dead in the hospital and it's all my fault.
3. My relationship with everyone is mangeled no one trusts me, no one.
Or at least that's how I felt. It wasn't until everything fell apart that I could grasp how to make things better. I was so depressed I nearly committed suicide. Thankfully, Elias' father saved me from ending my life and showed me how to make a new life. He revieled to me how to truely accept the situations around me, the people in my life, and even myself.
When I allowed myself to be open and let someone in made a tramendice difference in my life.
No longer was I depressed. Of course I still miss my mother everyday, but I forgive myself and my father. I realized that it was no one's fault it's just the way things went. I remember my mother for the beautiful woman that she was, and not for the cancer that took her life.
Elias recovered, and now things are well with him and his family as well as with our friendship. He is the best person who has ever entered my life. His close relationship with his father inspires me to create one with my own father. If I had never sunk to the bottom I do not know if I ever would have figured out a way to get back up. This chapter of my life has truely revieled the meaning of acceptance.
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